I woke early this morning wondering about doubt; turning doubt itself this way and that way in my heart. And I felt again the importance of practices. On Wednesday night in worship I said these words:
Dust you are and to dust you will return.
Love’s you are and to love you will return.
I traced the cross on foreheads with recalcitrant ashes. The crosses were not perfect but each one felt holy, each person holy.
This is an ancient practice. It pulls us into a place so dark that when we find ourselves breathing still within it, still, in that dark fundament, within the reach of love; we are freed from fear. And we are whole. This morning when I woke wondering about doubt, I reached for this; the memory of ashes on a companion’s forehead; the memory of ashes drawn on mine.
This recollection didn’t fix anything. But it did give me hope. It did again set me free.
I hope for you a practice constant and deep enough to call you to your truest self; a practice to hold you, free.